I FLEW. WHEE.
La fluer des secrets...the flower; that's the bringer of. and well, i guess that everyone has their fair share of problems. been doing some reading of somethings that i might not am supposed to be, but i understood that whatever is on the surface of the water might not be what it seems. like some stupid saying goes, which is something that relates to the underwater current being stronger than the surface.
or maybe it's the calm before the storm; it's just that whatever might be shown facially, might just be conflicting with what's really inside. what's that something that can't be mixed and matched? maybe it's similar poles of a magnet; or wahtever that it might be.
doing all the reading; though not useful for my studies, promted me to spend, approximately 2 minutes; while i'm pissing in the bathroom and shaving to think about how seriously carefree i'm. those 2 minutes really made me wonder. wonder about how the fuck i could be so carefree, so aimless, without much bother to whatever that might be happening to things around me, the way that i live, as one day comes, the next day always comes later. that sort of 'peaceful' life when compared to others; such as those facing, maybe, for example, relationship problems. yeah, maybe there's always the underlying problem of cash flow problems, but other than that, i can see from my brother, with comparision to my own lifestyle, we both pretty much have parallel lifestyles, lifestyles which are sort of different, but in the end, having to go in the same direction.
you see, the death, pain, grief, sorrow, torture or whatever other negetive feelings that alot of other people feel, i usually don't have such feelings. dissappointment, yes, regret, yes. common to me but those others. not that i really want to feel such extreme emotions, i'm just so glad that i'm able to be able to just go home and sleep it of the day's events, worrying about the next day's events in the morning that i wake up. what a carefree life, isn't it ?
maybe. just maybe.
