I FLEW. WHEE.
and it continued...and after posting, i remember something. something that i posted about a year ago. struck me just at that time, when i was going to get biscuits; and surprisingly, it made me turn back to this cranky old computer as i affectionately call it to type even more. yeah, even more.
you see, there was this post that i made sometime back regarding the issue about friendships. friendships can be easily made, but is atually twice as easier for it to break. who doesn't agree can come and give a peice of their mind and i'll make sure i step on that piece, cut it up and spit on it. crude, yet effective. it just dawned on me that my attitude and view on life could just be affected by the same way that i view friendships. might be introverted in that sense, as firstly, my social circle isn't that big, secondly, i don't believe in Christ, but i do respect those who believe as part of them. it might not be that of a direct connection, but i do somehow feel that it is connected. people do have their own views.
first off. small social circle, trust me, it is small. second thing, no extremely close friend. third thing, upbringing. you see; i really respect my parents for being so damn strict with me when i was a kid. those actions, like no televsion programmes or computer after 8pm, other that those days when there was still Phua Chu Kang, oh yeah. memories of my pathetic childhood that some might call it. call it whatever you want, i didn't like it at first, when i was still young but now is really when i see the worth. it brought me so close to home. like some people feel just at home with their friends, i feel just at home when i'm at home. paradoxical? oxymoronic ? maybe. but it's true, it's probably the best feeling that one could ever get, just lying on my bed, doing practically nothing at all, other than staring at the ceiling, trying to keep awake at times, while listening to music. it's just like some love staring out into the ocean while at the beach, i think that my house ceiling is the best. sound stupid, yeah, but's it me.
damn, i love digressing and going of the main track and forgetting what the fuck i'm really trying to say. damn i love it. the way i see things, is different from alot of people, like some religious people might say, " God made us different."
yeah, quite true, but i still don't believe that he once walked this Earth. sorry, but it's me. and i still believe that you made your choice in believing and i respect you about it, whoever there's out there who believes in Christ. random fact, i rather believe in Islam than in Christianity.yeah, i read the Bible before, and i spelt. sorry, but i did make a effort to read. quite midly interesting. strange, yet i believe so. another random fact, i'm a free thinker. yeah, one who does the taoist traditions just because i respect my parents and i do it for them. you see, i moved away again. damn i love it.
just to reinforce something, i love my carefree lifestyle, that not bothering about somethings, being such a guy, i love it. it might change someday, it probably will, but till then. heh heh, not a chance in hell. oh yeah. and oh, that friends post that i made before, probably has to be dechipered somewhere. good luck, if someone who's free enough to go and try to do something like what i suggested. i think it's last year. might be early this year though. heh heh.
